Psychedelic journey

After several hypnosis sessions at Studio Vrij, which had already brought significant improvements in my depression, I wanted to take the next step. I had done extensive research into psychedelic treatment methods and decided—after consulting with Nancy—to go for it. By that time, I had complete trust in Nancy as a guide. I did feel a bit nervous beforehand, but the preparation with Nancy was thorough, and I entered the session feeling calm and relaxed.

The results were remarkable. During the week following the session, I felt very energetic and highly aware of my surroundings; everything came in vividly through all my senses. I felt light, as if a weight had literally been lifted off my shoulders.

Now, seven weeks later, I notice lasting changes. My energy is higher, my motivation and creativity have increased, and I feel focused, clear, and present. I no longer procrastinate and easily take on things that had been left unfinished for a long time—without any pressure. It feels completely natural.

Another welcome effect is that I no longer feel the urge to smoke weed or endlessly snack. Even a glass of wine doesn’t appeal to me anymore. I also no longer need nine hours of sleep; I now wake up every morning feeling energized, looking forward to the day and whatever it brings.

After the passing of my wife, my entire perspective on life changed. It opened me up to things beyond the materialistic lifestyle I had led until then. That's how I discovered the existence of psychedelic retreats, which apparently have brought comfort to many in coping with the loss of a loved one.

I signed up at Studio Vrij, and what struck me immediately was the genuine care and attention given during the preparatory process. I didn’t really have specific expectations, but it already felt so meaningful to share my story with Nancy and the other guide. That personal connection made it feel like we weren’t strangers anymore, even before the retreat began.

And then the retreat day itself — it was a deeply meaningful, beautiful, and supportive experience. The location is peaceful and serene, and you instantly feel at ease. It’s easy to disconnect from the outside world for a moment. The session took place in a small group, which I really appreciated. Everyone is welcome to share their story if they wish. For me — and I believe for the others as well — it was comforting to realize that we’re all struggling with something, and that this is a safe space where you can speak openly.

After the introductions and a breathing exercise, we had a short break, and then the session began. I had never used anything like this before, but I went in with an open mind. What followed was a truly special experience that will stay with me for the rest of my life. I was able to transform a part of my grief into a feeling of gratitude and joy for the time we had together. That shift has helped me find more appreciation in daily life again — even though the sadness and longing are still there. But that’s okay too, and it feels good to be able to accept that.

After the session, there was all the time needed to rest and ground. There was space to share our experiences, and we ended the day with a shared meal. It’s such a beautiful thing to get to know people — whom you’ve never met before — so deeply in just one day, without any small talk or superficiality.

Everything was thoughtfully and lovingly taken care of. The guides were always present, warm, and compassionate. For now, I feel strong again, but if life becomes heavy once more, I know where to turn.

Before the retreat, I was well prepared for what was to come. I received a detailed document that clearly explained everything, including where to find additional information if needed. It was also very reassuring to have a personal introduction beforehand, with plenty of time and space to ask questions and to start building a connection.

The retreat location was breathtakingly beautiful, full of natural light, and equipped with everything you need to travel comfortably inward. Before we began, we did several body-oriented exercises as a group to help ground and settle ourselves.

My journey was emotionally and physically intense, but I felt deeply supported and safe throughout. The guides intuitively sensed what I needed, which made all the difference. It was also incredibly helpful that they were available the next day, when I was still working through some parts of my experience that felt stuck.

This experience has truly supported me in my process, and I will definitely return in the future.

I just wanted to let you know that I had a truly wonderful holiday after my ceremony. I’m feeling full of energy and have really let my 'free child' come out.

Yesterday, I did another breathwork session with a breath coach… and it was absolutely amazing. The images I saw were very similar to those from my psychedelic journey. Once again, I felt so clearly that everything is already okay, that I was being held and supported, and that deep confirmation came through once more. I really feel that the effects of my journey are continuing to unfold. I’m also feeling much better overall.

And I’m so happy to see the first buds on the trees and bushes and the early spring flowers... we’re entering the season of growth and renewal. I just felt like sharing this with you.